Getting out of the shame and blame game.

In the last 24 hours I’ve found myself wishing more than anything to go into my closet and hide behind my hanging clothes. Like I would do as a kid when I got in trouble or made a mistake and didn’t want anyone to look at me. To duck out. To have a significant amount of time where no one could see me, and I could just sit in the silence and pretend to not exist. It sounds dramatic, but it’s my defense mechanism for overwhelming emotion that doesn’t feel great; that has me que

Was I supposed to be a mom?

I used to think there was something wrong with me. I hated doing dishes and laundry, day in and day out. Dealing with whining kids who seemed to do nothing but fight and complain all the live long day. I struggled connecting with my kids, and after what seemed like the 10th parenting book I read in an attempt to “get better at momming,” I came to truly believe that the key to my problems was the relationship I had with them. I had been taught my whole life that family relatio